Raspberry sherbert

Haven't posted in awhile because of the weekend and because I am studying for this test I have to take to originate loans. Kinda boring, but really good int he long run!

Just talked to Angie M. and I am excited! We are going to the Red River Gorge with them and the Hamm's and possibly the Grossman's in October. I am really looking forward to spending time with all of these guys!! The kids, the talking, the repelling, the connecting on a different level....I am so stoked about this!! We are going to have a great time!

Later!

dealing with disappointment

Disappointment is hard. I always do this to myself...build something up and then get let down. Something that someone said last week led me to believe something was going to be given to me today and it turned out to not be true. This comes during this critical time of stepping out in faith for Tim and I, that it has shook me pretty hard. Makes me wonder where my faith really lies. I thought I had a handle on this and yet it still seems to be important to me. I hate that! Womehow it snuck back into my heart. I don't wanna be ruled by this thing anymore. >Crucify that with in me Lord that makes me ugly in your sight, which I know that this thing does!<

Tim's home for good now

Tim got home from his last over the road haul this morning. He didn't realize it until he got into the terminal that this was his last, but he was still happy. We are going to the homecoming game tonight as afamily for the first time in a long time. In fact I don't think we have gone to a Batesville game yet as a family. It should be fun, Chess is in the homecoming parade and Cricket worked on the senior float, that was a shocker to me!! She usually could care less about school spirit stuff!

Got 2 go, have a good one!

Sunday is the day!

Well, Tim got some hard evidence this morning that he FINALLY starts his new job on Sunday! YEAH!! His new hours and days are going to take some getting used to. His start time would be 8pm, which is actually 7pm our time right now, which means he will have to leave at 6pm. He will get home around 5am. I won't have a problem with those hours, but i wonder how he will adapt to third shift. His days off (he finall yhas set days off!!!) will be Monday and Tuesday, with most of Wednesday. Soooooo.......we can finally start having a life together and a family life!! Well, at least when volleyball ends! He starts this Sunday, so no more long trips to Atlanta, Memphis, Chicago or anywhere else for that matter!! If I could list the pro's and cons of the job change I think they would look like this:

Pros:
Home every day
Time to spend with the girls
Home every day
Time to build relationships with others
Home every day
Time to take care of the animals
Home every day
Time to take care of the yard

Cons:
Not as much $$
Home every day
Limited intimate time with me
Home every day
Daily commute to Cincy
Home every day
Potential to not adjust to third shift
Home every day

As you can gather, I am a little apprehensive about how easy its going to be for both of us and the girls to have him home EVERY day. It's sad to say but we sorta got used to him being gone for a couple of days. It didn't mean we liked it, it just became a way of life and now we are going to have to adjust to a new way of life. Lord help us all!!

See ya!

parenting dilema

Just thought I would let everyone know that I did the unthinkable regarding my child, grades and sports...I conceeded and am letting her play volleyball tonight even though she failed ANOTHER math test this past week. Go ahead, gasp and say "What a horrible parent!" I know, I know, I caved. Wouldn't be the first, probably won't be the last! One the more strict side of letting her play...there WILL be stipulations and consequences if she fails to abide by the stipulations. Boy, what hard ass I am!

Emotional roller coaster

I was standing in line for this roller coaster called "Emotions" on Friday. It was a long line, lots of people waiting to get on. Some I don't think wanted to ride, some didn't have a clue what they were getting on, and some enthusiastically anticipated this ride. On Saturday I finally boarded the ride, buckled myself in, stowed all my loose articles and tried to think of something else. This ride started out pretty tame, just some minor ups and downs, nothing to fear. Then all of a sudden we rounded a turn and this enormous hill of anger loomed in front of me. The cars grabbed the chain on the tracks...click, click, click....and I made my asscent. I could feel the frustration, bitterness, and resentment building. As I went down the other side I unleashed my fury into the open air! I rode the coaster into Sunday which included loops, bends and hills named loneliness, confusion, sadness and hurt. The ride has finally ended this morning, but I can see that there is another roller coaster down the road just calling my name.

I hate the way I feel right now!! I am angry, hateful, frustrated and hurt. BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!! I got home from a women's retreat in Brookville that I was on the prayer team for, was looking forward to going to a bbq at the Rivera's, called Tim to find out where he was and he is already there! STILL NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY I FEEL THE WAY I DO!! What is going on here God???

I hear wedding bells

I feel a little snubbed right now. Cricket informed me that her and Bryan's mom, Charolette, were going into Cincy to go to David's Bridal this evening. Three or four weeks ago I told Cricket that I would help her with anything she needed help with, all she had to do was ask. But since then I had shared with her how I was feeling about the wedding being in December, (not real happy, but she's 18 and I can't control her life), which she took as me not wanting to do ANYTHNG with her regarding her wedding. So she asked Charolette. I guess I was too forceful in my expression to her of my disappointment in the December date. Anyway she called and cancelled with Charolette to take me, it didn't really make me feel any better. She has always kept me out of the loop on this stuff because I am not an excited, happy supporter. Wish she were graduating college instead of highschool, then it would make me feel much more comfortable about her future. What I see for her and Bryan are financially hard times and possibly a couple of years living with us! :(

Oh, well, I have two bright spots in my day today, one actually happened yesterday; a pesky loan finally closed! One that had been haunting me in my nightmares for the past 3 weeks.
The other, I might get the opportunity to take Justin and Abby with Cricket and I tonight! I just love spending time with them! They are the cutest little stinkers!

Gotta get back to work, later!

As Homer Simpson would say "DOH!"

Have you ever gone through something so terrible and towards the end it finally dawns on you that maybe, just maybe God was trying to teach you something??

I will elaborate more when I have time.

great revelation littered with frustration

Good morning! I can still say that, it's not yet noon. However, that "good morning" sounds way too cheery! I am not that cheery this morning. I have this cloud following me today, it is big and nasty and won't go away. It is the perverbial "Just when you thought it was safe to go back into the water...." I feel like someone is telling me one thing and then 12 hours later changing the rules. I no longer get three strikes like I've had for the past 8 innings, I am only allowed two! Who said they could do that!!!!!!

On the lighter side, I walked 2 miles intead of just 1 this morning. That was fun, and it didn't even hurt that much!

grandkids are great

Got to be like a grandma Saturday, it was so much fun! Maranda, the girls older sister and her three kids, Josh (6), Kyra (4), and Kaylee (3) came to spend the weekend with us. It was nice, the kids took to Tim right away, started calling him Grandpa within a few minutes! I thought that was hillarious! Technically in a manner of speaking he is their grandpa, but it is a long story and I won't bore you with it! For myself I reall yenjoyed having the kids around. Can't wait until my own have their kids. Wtill praying for Michael and Jamie, they are still trying to get pregnant again. They have lost two pregnancies so far, Jamie has a kidney disorder that makes it hard for her to concieve. So, we keep praying!

Tim doesn't start his new job until the 26th now, I guess it's a good thing. Had to have his truck fixed again this weekend, another $400 dollars! Told Tim he needs to run his butt off to get some of the credit card paid down just in case we need to use it.

Well, gotta get back to work!
Later!

Ms. Crabby pants

Woke up yesterday in a crabby mood. Came to work yesterday and tried to post my thoughts and get them out of me, but blogger wouldn't publish my writing. Took it personal, like my writing wasn't good enough for the "all supreme blog engine"! Of course that was the crabby pants talking. Went to my jr high girls small group was TOTALLY blessed by their prayer time and the way they pray for one another. Feel highly priviledged to be able to share in their sprititual growth! :0) That made me Ms. Happy pants; until the ride home. Then the subject of Cricket and Bryan getting married came up...threw me into a tizzy cuz they are saying now the date is December 18th. I asked her who was paying for it because I had already told her that December was not good due to Christmas expenses. To make a long story short, I guess they are getting married in December. :( There is so much more that I can say about this issue, but won't at this time.

Looking forward to another volleyball game this evening. Chessie's team is 3-0 right now, hopefully they can keep it up.

Tim is waiting on a call from the terminal mgr to let him know when he starts his new position. Suposed to be tomorrow, but may not be until next week. Why do I get the feeling that the company is goint to drag this out as long as they can?

Have a question fot you....why is it when God give you a great desire to do something, you see the need for it to be done, and all you really wanna do is that thing, there comes a ton of obstacles for you to get over and the task seems much more impossible? Can anyone explain this to me??

Gotta get to work. Later taters!

If you were a pickle would you eat yourself?

How's that for an early morning question from a 13 year old?

Yes, my daughter asked me that; Yes, I gave her an answer; No I am not sharing that answer here!

Getting ready to go into a meeting at work. An "operations" meeting with the new person on the processing team and the big cheese. I think she is working out, wonder if it's too early to tell though, this IS only her 2nd day.

Received a briefing this A.M. on the new org. chart for church. I am excited about what God has gifted the men in the group to come up with! It looks like a wheel with approximately 14 spokes. From what I have seen and heard it is a good sound structure. Go GOD!! I am ready to step into the plans God has for our church/body.

Gotta go!

Feels like a Monday

I guess it's always like this, a monday on a tuesday after a holiday! Was in a funk yesterday, not sure why, maybe concern and stress over Tim's impending job change. I wonder if I am feeling a litlle tied in to my job now, you know, no freedom to change hours or cut back or go straight to commission work because we are now dependant on my income. I guess I can hope that this feeling shall soon pass.....won't it???

It figures,.... I feel this way, and yet get bombarded this weekend with the need to connect and develope more close relationships with people I know God is wanting me to get close to, and yet don't see how I can squeeze out any more time out of my day. Huh, go figure!!

Is the day over yet?

Man this day is dragging along!! It's only 12:45!! It doesn't help that things are slow here and that I am not gettting any response from any of my lender's. Ugh.....I feel soooooo frustrated right now!!

On the better side of my day, Michael called me about an hour ago. He and Jamie are doing fine, she had a lump removed last week that went well, they are just waiting for the lab results to know whether it is cnacerous or not. If you feel so inclined, pray for her. They are all mvoed in tot heir new home on post. Wish I could go down and spend some time with them. Maybe in the next few weeks I will be able to go down there. His b-day is coming up, I will shoot for sometime around then, however Kyrie's b-day is a few days before his. Still trying to plan the big surprise party for her.

Have you ever had one of those days where you just wanted to crawl in bed and stay there?

later taters!

Lovin the fact that it's Friday

Quick update on Chesiney's volleyball...their first games were on Tuesday, they won 2 lost 1; last night they won 2, only played 2. I guess that would make their record so far 4 out of 5? She is playing well, which I knew she would, she is an all around athelete.

Looking forward to the long weekend, maybe I will be able to get some stuff done around the house.

For all of you out there that call Tim on his cell phone, just thought you should know that as he was driving yesterday somehow his cell phone slid off the dashboard and out the window and shattered on the highway. So don't expect him to answer or call anyone. :0(

Wanna read some interesting things about teachings and how people learn scripture? Check out this link to a blog....very interesting stuff!

www.kline.blogspot.com

See ya!

4:20 and already tired

Only 40 minutes to go until I get to make a bee line for the door! don't get me wrong, I love my job, just overly tired today. It never ceases to amaze me how long the day feels when I have had a big lunch. Oh well!

Planning a surprise party for my daughter, she's turning 16 in a few weeks. Does it count as a surprise when she asked for it? Not sure about that, but she promised she would act surprised! She is also getting a HUGE surprise in the next week or so...her grandpa and us (Tim and I) bought her a car. Nothing grand, just a 98 chevy cavalier. Needs new brakes which we are doing tommorow. This is her "dream" car, minus the black bumpers. We got a great deal on it, she shoudl be happy. I feel sorta bad, we didn't do this for Cricket when she turned 16 and we didn't do this for Michael when he turned 16. I am also a little scared, is Chesiney gonna expect the same in 3 years when she turns 16??? Lordy, lordy did we just set a precident?? I hope not!

Tim starts his new job @ the same company on the 10th. He will be home EVERY day, that will be really strange after years of him being gone most of the week. Not sure how we (the girls and I) are going to adjust to that.

Well, gotta go, took me WAY too long to post this!
later tater!

trying again!

hey, thought I would try my keyboard at this again. had a blog awhile ago, can't figure out how to delete it, so I made another one. we will see how far this takes me, I have alot to get our of my head, so maybe I will be more diligent about posting.

wrong url

Well, screwed the url up to this blog. thought i put "christaharness" turned out I put "chirstaharness", subtle difference, but very important! oh well!