dealing with disappointment

Disappointment is hard. I always do this to myself...build something up and then get let down. Something that someone said last week led me to believe something was going to be given to me today and it turned out to not be true. This comes during this critical time of stepping out in faith for Tim and I, that it has shook me pretty hard. Makes me wonder where my faith really lies. I thought I had a handle on this and yet it still seems to be important to me. I hate that! Womehow it snuck back into my heart. I don't wanna be ruled by this thing anymore. >Crucify that with in me Lord that makes me ugly in your sight, which I know that this thing does!<