Big ol' jet airliner....

When I was little I used to think the lyrics to that Steve Miller Band song were "Big ol' Jed had the light on..." I told that to my husband a while back and he laughed so hard; and now when he hears that song, those are the only lyrics he can sing!

So, I have prayed these prayers of "Lord, teach me to trust you!" "Show me what it looks like to trust in you fully and completely." "I want to know what it means to FULLY trust YOU, not rely on myself, my husband, my family or friends." These last few days I have just been praising Him that in His great wisdom, grants more mercy on me when I pray those prayers. I asked a friend of mine if it was normal for the sh** to hit the fan IMMEDIATELY following prayers like that and he chuckled and said "Yeah, most people don't understand what they pray when they pray those type of things." That was said to me a few days after another friend of mine half jokingly told me not to pray for her and her husband because the prayers I pray scare the crap out of her! Well, I am hear to say that I FULLY understand what I have prayed and I FULLY embrace the lesson, and do NOT back down from continuing to pray those type prayers. I know in my heart of hearts it is not out of pride or arrogance that I pray those things, I just want to know HIM on a deeper level...I DO NOT want to stay in the spiritual spot that I have been staying in. I desire more of HIM and less of me. Just once I would love not to fail the test on the first try. Is that even possible? If it is I want it! Every fiber of my being screams "Bring it on God!" Not in an arrogant disrespectful way, but in the desire to know HIM deeper kind of way. I love Him and wnat more of Him!

Michael's flight crew. He's the one with the M-16!

The Holiday's are tailgating me!

I am sorry it has been so long since I have posted. Been a little busy and a little depressed. There is lots to post just not sure how to get it out of my head and onto the screen. Some time I will take the time to share a little what has been going on...but dont' hold your breath!